Inappropriately Chubby

That's how I would currently describe myself. I'm taking the plunge here and telling the whole world (well, or at least my 3 readers) that I seriously need to stop painfully stuffing my midsection and butt into my jeans. And my pajama pants. And my undies, for that matter. It's just so scary. And like I said above, inappropriate.

If you know me at all, you probably know that I've always been thin. It's true. It's just never been an issue for me, really. Well, it's an issue now. I've been pregnant or nursing or postpartum since 2006, so needless to say, the metabolism/hormone combination has taken a good beating. So much so, in fact, that I believe I no longer have any metabolism. Is that possible? Is it possible to take 3 days to digest a meal? I think it may be.

Anyway, here's the deal. I'm not pregnant, nursing, or postpartum anymore. I AM planning on swimming this summer though. In an actual bathing suit. I am also planning on bending over and not ripping the butt of my pants. I would also like to bend over and not black out. I'm dangerously close to that last one. I think I saw "floaters" yesterday when I reached down to pick up Austin's burp rag. So sad.

I'm the type of person that will whine about something for awhile. I will also have good intentions of accomplishing goals, although it sometimes takes me some time to get going. However, when I'm ready, I do it. Well, I'm done whining and ready to go. I have never been okay with buying bigger clothes. That's dumb. I mean, come on. Am I seriously going to spend money on new clothes because I cannot stop stuffing my face? How ridiculous is that? Like I said before, I just stuff my face and then stuff my butt and other surrounding squishy parts into my regular clothes. When that no longer works, I stop. Although, I would LOVE it if someone decided that maternity clothes were "in" for regular people. That would be AWESOME.

As of tomorrow, I'm beginning South Beach. I'm ready and excited. I will admit that I have gorged myself all day today. I mean GORGED. I feel a little nauseous as a matter of fact. Again, so sad.

Well, I just thought I would share. Since I'm SURE you'll be SO curious to know how it's going, I will be posting about the whole dang thing. :)

Oh, and one more thing - I already exercise alot, and will continue to do so. I'm actually starting training for the Tulsa Run that's held in October, which is a 15k. It's just that from now on, I will reward myself with a highly tasty celery stick after working out. Instead of a highly tasty candy bar.

Have a good night!